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    Home?

     

    The look or a lack of it that black the black that dark down there buried deep filled with disappointments filled with all that discouraging sight.

     

    We sent them there

    to see that

    and they’re coming back.

     

    The one on top of the other carnage the bodies like garbage like nothing is coming trucked in the dismembered wrecks of every cracked and crying kid and every kneeling woman wailing and burning in all that disaffected loss.

     

    And how about now

    we sent them there

    to see that

    and now they’re back.

     

    They see themselves in corner shop windows reflections of their limbs torn apart and busted and their friends amidst the putrefied ruins the carnage of their heroic aspirations.

     

    In everyday breaths in everyday steps written in our faces for their bemusement the pumping blood all that humanity cast aside flung away in market places like dying carp flapping in the desert dirt.

     

    We sent them there

    to see that

    and now we’re the bundled

    death and corpses.

     

    All standing in the rain and waiting and waiting for another mission another pair of boots coming down on us from someone else’s tidy war and they could rightly step aside having already seen our charred remains on another countries faces.

     

    We sent them there

    to see that

    and now we’re too afraid to look

    at all that black.

     

 

 


Cows

 

 


                Milking Pilgrimage

                 

                The trees lean out, straining

                Their dry leaves fly free

                like a hail of Zulu spears.

                 

                Bored, I toss small stones

                and savour their short flights

                in defiance of the westerly wind.

                 

                I Turn away from the sting,

                from the drought busted pastures,

                and a sky scoured by dust.

                 

                Along the fence line,

                coming up from the gully,

                the black and whites meandering.

                 

                In long ambling bovine lines,

                following the tracks, cut deep,

                when the soils were dark and sticky.

                 

                The milkers stagger, their thick necks

                 bent in a mulish battle

                against that dry killing wind.

                 

                One treads softly after another,

                as they climb that long slope,

                a journey, repeated their entire lives

                 

                Slow, quiet and resolute,

                on their afternoon pilgrimage

                to those rattling iron sheds.

                 

                To the heat, and the smells

                of silage, sweet warm milk,

                and dark, grass fed shit.

                 

                They file past me,

                Their bursting udders beat rhythm

                between their stained white legs.

                 

                The last dawdling milker

                Hurries to catch her sisters

                Waiting for her up at the sheds.

                 

                The dust plasters my shirt against me

                and I wonder at those dull dark eyes

                and scoff at that dim-witted gaze.

                 

                Suddenly, my hat is stolen

                by that the damned westerly wind

                and cursing I chase it through the dust.

                 

                Defeated, in those broken paddocks,

                I begrudgingly envy the milkers

                and their lofty bovine enlightenments.

     

 

 


    Summer Hurt

    A summer hurt

    Those moments hang

    lazily before me.

    A legion of tattered standards,

    stalled by the scent of the sea.

     

    Facing east, numbed

    I sit and stare

    anesthetised by the pill

    the soundless vacuum of loss.

     

    The waters of the estuary

    are steel, dark, and still.

    A low summer tide

    has stunned them, quiet.

     

    On the flats tiny figures

    pick their way, slow as Herons,

    across the sand, in search of bait.

    Wandering, languid and aimless.

     

    I hate them, short and sharp,

    for their luxurious nothingness.

    The flames fuelled

    by the whispered crowing of pain.

     

    The hurt is soothing

    as I watch the tide

    begins to turn.

    Dull in the summer heat.

    Gone is the cut of fresh winter pain.

 

 

 

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